Wednesday, January 25, 2012

About a boy...

***The content has been edited from my original post to make it more public friendly. 

So, I met a boy...well, I met a man. I felt like a girl though. A giddy teenage girl who wanted to run home and giggle about it with her girlfriends.

It's not what you think though.
Some of you reading this will not understand why I am making a big deal of it, but those that know me are probably just as excited as I am.

And he is not really where my excitement is.

Okay, I am lying. I am super excited about meeting him.

What made it such a big deal for me was that I met a man ...and I don't feel guilty or uncomfortable!!! No matter what comes of meeting this man - a friendship, more or less, it was a feeling of healing. This meeting was instrumental in me realizing how much I have healed from the affair, the divorce, the loss...I am ready to live my life to its fullest and I feel GREAT about it!!! I never thought I'd get here and I never imagined feeling like this again.

In a journal entry from April 24, 2009 (my first journal entry from my initial separation), I wrote out a prayer...Please open my heart  to forgiveness and take away my anger, bitterness and resentment. Lord, guide me to  react in ways that glorify you, to speak words that are pleasing to you and to make choices according to your will.
Almost 3 years later I have been so blessed with this restoration of my heart. God has truly made beautiful things out of the dust...Listen to the song below :) Oh - and don't bother details :)
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1 comment:

  1. In response to the emails I am getting, one day we might be FB friends, then he'd read this blog and details would make it a bit embarrassing. Sorry!!!